1. Report for the refresher course deanery diocese of Basel,
Samuel Widmer, June 1990
Samuel Widmer, June 1990
To represent the structure of our personality in connection with our history, personal and impersonal, as well as in connection with our feelings, I use some schemes that I first wish will explain. (See Fig. 1-3). ) The first scheme (Fig. 1a) depicts the state of the newborn as it comes into this world: this is not a structured infinite the flow of energy, pure perception, pure consciousness, there is not a thought, no awareness of the concepts. I do not know whether you are able to feel it. There is only open sentient core without any kind of neurotic or caused by reason of walls, surrounded by transpersonal boundary layer, that baby yet emotionally accessible. It contains perenatalnye experience; if we proceed from the possibility of reincarnation, then it also contains not processed experiences from past lives, especially the experience of death, and otherworldly experiences. If, however, exclude the possibility of reincarnation, then this knowledge is still there, then it just goes on the general collective unconscious, to which an adult. As a rule, and as we shall see later, fully lost access. The child is still a wide open energy system.
Now imagine what happens when such a creature, what we all once were when so easily vulnerable to a solid mass of sensuous, sensual, energetic and conscious level, facing with normal adults, we are, as we know, what were our parents. I do not know, Are you able to see through both of the collision differently structured perception, energy, feelings and consciousness. Such as feeling warm, sensitive, attentive treatment, and finding love in good hands will lead to a positive learning process that will not leave a trace, but will leave us as we are on the other hand stiffness, stress and impatience will lead to confusion, injury, paralysis, helplessness, tyranny - to a negative learning process, which leaves deep scars. Last and, unfortunately, a part of the action leads to the first more transparent, but it seems to limit the energy mass of the child, to the first seizure, the first More soft shell of loneliness, misunderstanding, exceptions, and pain, as we see them in Figure 1b and 1c. With this also linked the first fear. Perhaps you can imagine that this pain and its expression in the way, weighs around and so are not desirable, appropriate reaction to this leads the child to the sense of burdening himself, and the absence of any desire at all.
Consequently, there are rejecting feelings - strong-willed impulses against these unwanted feelings of helplessness and loneliness. Are born hatred, rage, envy, jealousy. This leads to the second, already opaque constraint, the solidified shell (Fig. 1d), which in itself creates us is strong enough and makes us forget our original nature. Although the forms of expression we are quite at ease, as wayward and whining three year olds. But the expression of these negative feelings out again prevents others and therefore undesirable. Since we all are inherently focused on what to bring joy to others, and as the requirements fit and "normal" behavior we are clear, we suppress these feelings as well. Begins to form a third shell layer device (Figure 1b and 1e), which permanently restricts and constrains us. Fear and stubbornness accompany this development and they increase to an intolerable state. To do all this though somehow viable to us, therefore, have no choice but to eliminate all the problems of consciousness through repression, projection, denial, division and so on. Form a barrier of perception, cognition barriers (Fig. 2a), which internally fence off us from the deeper layers and block the expression outwards, preventing a clear vision of reality. Thus, we are finally trapped in the solid crust of "normal" behavior and live in constant fear of awakening. We are limited only reality of this layer standards, in short: we became the same as adults, which we have faced. It is important to see (and accept) that at each point of this development has been possible to its own decision in a different direction (not a denial of the a), of course, taking into account more or less dire consequences. It is also important to see what a warm, sympathetic, responsive behavior would cause adults to life is the same training process of the ego, but without the limitations and constraints to narrow the norm. Developed in this way the ego would then be enriched, which would be given to us in order as a tool to overcome life without obliging us of losing access to the vast dimensions of our original being.
So now formed ego, totally alienated from his inner center of how we all have to greater or lesser extent, a (Fig. 1b and 2a). When This happened at the same time and something positive: awaken the consciousness, the consciousness of the ego. So all this should be considered in a broader relationship.
This individual development, which we all, each in his own pass, is also consistent with evolutionary history a necessary development. Initially, to this exclusion, we have come by themselves, to the expulsion from paradise unconscious by a confrontation with awakened consciousness (knowledge of good and evil, eating the fruit (apple) in Paradise). Awaken the consciousness and the associated fear of death, as well as feelings of worthlessness on the one hand, and omnipotence on the other hand, should first call the conscious shock, and thus form a solidified frightened ego promote alienation from the center of existence, which in the next, continuing the Millennium step back should be overcome. And only then will eventually be able to form a conscious whole person, which again find the road to paradise, but not as the unconscious work of God, but God himself - that is not backward in unconscious paradise, but forward in a conscious, for which we ourselves take on the responsibility that we ourselves become creatively build.
It is this development from the alienation of the ego to the conscious whole person (Fig. 2b), which for some time in our history took place, has already begun. But we, the people feel a great fear of the revival and integration our internal layers.
Why, we shall soon see. But apart from this fear in us all yet again there is a passionate desire to find his way home. Therefore, we, both individually and everything in general, is constantly over and over again find ourselves in situations that force us to gradually discover those of our feelings, which lie more deeply. Distribution of all the horrors in the world that we so well know, all the cruelty of war, pollution, poverty, hunger, we mutually provoke themselves to themselves and then run into them. That is all that can be viewed as an attempt to overcome alienation. People who are themselves no longer feel the need to be strong stimuli to again be able to do something to feel. Unfortunately it is often leads only to activities in the ever-recurring fear, unless, of course, while there has been no conscious process. But if he will be excited simultaneously - And this, I believe, is our task as a priest, or psychotherapist: instead of express prohibitions, condemn, and to displace, in all that happens awaken the consciousness - the alienation can be experienced and stopped. Rejected by a feeling of powerlessness behind the callousness, the identification with the persecutor not to be sued, all of which can be opened and be the beginning of a new measure, which is simultaneously lost the old one.
Personality alienation: an evolutionary-increasing conscious
historically - through confrontation the revival and integration with
awaken the consciousness (fear of internal layers
death) individually - through
confrontation with conditioning
adult in childhood
historically - through confrontation the revival and integration with
awaken the consciousness (fear of internal layers
death) individually - through
confrontation with conditioning
adult in childhood
return possible, but not back into the unconscious Paradise, no, but upstairs, in the conscious. The consciousness of good and evil no longer be reversed, but can be overcome. The duality of good and evil can be overcome only when the evil will be fully integrated. All that we find in the outside world, such as war, and all that is in our personal lives reveals themselves as evil, in line with our rejected the shadows (as well as difficulties with patients, students, children). Our problems, internal and external, from which we constantly want to escape, actually are not problems, but a beginning to overcome our difficulties. Their acceptance leads to transformation and transcendence. This I would now be more clearly illustrated by the transition from the normal or neurotic person to person-piece (Fig. 2).
Life in a layer devices dictated by the great fear. Both outside and inside there is occupied by fear barrier (Fig. 2a). Truth can not be perceived from the outside, but the deeper layers can not recognize the inside. As subordination under this fear leads to adaptation to restraint and restriction to inertial measure up to standards, and knows itself, each of us. How much is locked inside our hearts at the level of body, feelings, energy, and like any treasure in our lives is lost, both because of this and externally many do not survive, can not be expressed in a relationship, alone, in all spheres of life because it is dominated by fear. Because of these obstacles conscious and unconscious artificially separated. This psychotherapy, real spirituality, real religion are trying to help these people again to break the blockade (Fig. 2c). The entire evolution aimed in this direction, with the associated whole meaning of our existence. First of all, this fear must be re-felt, re-enacted. We should rejoice fear, even fear increased, to see how the acceptance and understanding of it gradually leads to clarity and knowledge, so that gradually peel fear hatch good kernel, so that fear will turn into a careful, caring, gently, and gradually more and more disintegrated. It will dissolve, because we are all more and more appreciated in fully understanding the state of openness to fear, which makes it unnecessary fear. Also, resistance, stubbornness, directed against awareness should be aroused in order to break through the layer of devices. We must regain our perseverance, our say "no" to adapt. Because we are afraid to say "no" because of the consequences it could trigger. Say no to adapt means to say "yes" to yourself, despite the external loss such as location and despite the internal feelings such as fear or guilt. Will will re-open. In stubbornness is found positive nucleus. Crisp and clear "yes" clear and explicit "no", "I want" and "I do not want" instead of "I need, I need, I can not, who ruled us in a layer devices. Resistance itself, the perception of their own true nature is now directed against the opportunists. Everything becomes clearer shows that it depends only on me, now and always, I deny myself or not. Even if I am a child or a teenager was hard, it was too complicated to solve itself for themselves against the pressure device, even if it is clear that I was afraid of the consequences, that's all it was my decision, decisions against himself, against the my own feelings, which I can cancel at any time. However, the disclosure of their own will I return back to their so-called angry feelings, to reject feelings. With the ability to withstand the fear I get clarity on all the chaos of feelings in me and in the world and the impact that it provides. In this way we will be a long time to go through a dark corridor on both sides of which are located in a number of doors, behind which is our feelings. All these rooms that fascinate us or cause us disgusted in which we lost when we open them, and not looking at it, we do no choice if we need to light these rooms to find their own way. Behind each of these rejecting feelings are more subtle rejected feelings, which then lead us back to our inner center. (Fig. 2d). For everyone else now apparent in such a horrible feeling we'll find a healthy vitality. Each of us - and this is important - we know every feeling, but everyone is more or less problematic to deal with it. We can not consider all these feelings of isolation, it's a long way, I will list only some of them: hatred, inhibited the vital force, behind which hides sorrow. Envy, which hides behind the fear of being excluded, the feeling of loneliness. Jealousy and its controlling tendencies, which hides behind the fear of loss and before the pain of loss. Dependence, which is trying to ward off loneliness, pain, depression, which contains the meaninglessness, pain, guilt, anger, feelings of inferiority. But there is still greed, boredom, rigidity, sense of duty, deceit, hypocrisy, violence, greed, suspicion, admiration, which also want to be integrated. For rejecting these feelings gradually more and more relieved feeling rejected, there is increasing Regression to the world baby, rejecting the ego begins to die, lose control, we again get access to perenatalnym spaces and death (Fig. 2d). We Discover the plane, which is what we want, no longer has such a strong weight, but is much more due to the whole vision. "Yes, come to pass is not mine, but Thy will be done" - says the new law. Clarity increases even more, but at the same time begins to open and access to universal force and thus to its own nucleus. These feelings, integration of these feelings always leads us directly back to our center. It is the despair, pain, sorrow, powerlessness, helplessness, exhaustion, which translate into growth in the sense of support and loyalty to the chosen direction, when we accept them. Loneliness, a sense of misunderstanding, prejudice, bewilderment and despair that lead to reconciliation and forgiveness. During the confusion, instability and inevitably we find death, transcendence, meaning, of strife and doubt the truth. Wakes up the consciousness of such incidents as the death and birth. Thus we gaining access to the transpersonal boundary layer (Fig. 2b and 2d). This space, in which a man comes after the death of the ego. Now not my feelings are at the center, but the rest of the universe, which I sensibly can reach. Feel the space, time, feel, feel emotional vibrations of others: through the senses perceive the other person, whole group, the plants, the entire planet, the whole universe. This transpersonal plane psychology. Intersect not only the spatial boundaries, but also the boundaries of linear time, perhaps one can experience their own rudimentary and embryonic development, the history of ancestral peoples, the earliest incarnation, the whole history of evolution. We can also penetrate the consciousness of our cells and tissues. But we also learn to navigate the boundaries of objective reality, to experience spiritual experiences and so on. Opens up the space, though delicious, but ultimately not important, they do not have a purpose. They can even be lost. Important, in contrast, only light that is released, which leads to greater love and greater awareness of 'here' and 'now'. Also, the power of a great temptation, since the power acquired by processing reject feelings, combined with the chaotic charm of these new spaces are easily evokes a sense of omnipotence, which still must be overcome. Loss sensuality means an interest in these spaces. Power is the replacement of a lost sensibility. Processing of these transpersonal spaces and feelings of omnipotence, more and more push to the forefront of the inner core of personality, its own qualities and abilities are seen and Now may occur (Fig. 2b and 2e). The energy that comes from inside, lays off the last resistance. We have more and more deeply begin to know the essence of Love, which in essence is our own original nature, to learn, if you so wish, the will of God. Began an endless process of feeling. I hate feeling more and more diluted. Fear is vigilance, care, care, honesty and finally disappears. Fatigue, weakness, helplessness disappear in their transformation into the willingness to surrender, security, and state adoption of the world, finding in himself a sense of support and flight. My heart, which is entirely filled, expresses itself in participation, the location, closeness, caring, patience, gentleness, sincerity, sensitivity, tact, delicacy. My loneliness turns into a blissful solitude, liberation, peace, silence, space, latitude, eternity, peace of mind, integrity, force, the flow of energy. Joy, harmony, happiness, peace, the safety, appreciation, clarity, beauty, reverence, knowledge, intelligence, freedom filled a space of unity and lead to the truth, authenticity, creativity, creation, simplicity and humility. I also admit that I can never fully achieve center of the light, but infinitely aspire to it. Only light can be here when the space of feelings everyone else will also be dissolved. Therefore, Here begins a new process. These spaces I pass by helping others get their space. I'm getting closer to the light, if I am light to others. In this process, a person becomes a therapist, healer, helper, teacher. Our essence is determined by the true passion, true empathy, honesty, breadth of nature, courage, humility, tolerance, sincerity, earnestness, serenity. We find that the reliability of eternal despair, the sense of meaninglessness and directed toward the center between the states of involvement and perseverance. Heavy air conditioning, in which our entire world and every one of us so much suffering, Now the solution: air conditioning is not "feeling" but only "response".
When we are dominated by rejecting the feelings we see evil outside us, we want to punish it when it appears to suppress it, delete or do anything like that. This is something that happens everywhere. Because of this evil goes underground and is valid from there is very dangerous. If I can afford to reject the feelings, I instead turn my face to the evil that will take it as a part of himself, understand it in ourselves and in the world and again I want to bring him to the truth. Impotence in the face heal evil, reconciled with him. The action does not help, but it helps inaction. Our huge global problems, we can not overcome, we are constantly being forced more and more to the recognition of our powerlessness (see drug problem, the problem of the environment and so on). We are afraid that if everything falls apart. But this failure is needed, it was he would start healing. Related feelings of powerlessness and surrender could again lead us to harmony with nature, to the House of God. Our ego that creates the world horror must ultimately fall before horrified the world, so we were able to step through conscious re-enter the lost paradise, to find favor in the end configured to us a universe in which we exist, that we are. This is the step that our world must do if he does not want to die; nature can still be healed only through inaction rather than through more steps. In a measure of the evolution and individuality step to impotence enforceable. Therefore, the weakness in our world is omnipresent, although we still do not want to admit it. Pressure outside becomes more and more to impotence was more noticeable. For us it is about to see what we can not keep it all under control, a contrast to all that obey. Evil is formed in the rejection that is, by alienation from himself. Welcome present when the possibility of the existence of evil is recognized and accepted, and sustained by This transformed. Evil is nothing but a spurned good. In our world, we are still trying to deny that evil and so punish him instead of with interest and love to turn around to face him again and bring him to the truth.
And finally, another, the last diagram (Fig. 3), which demonstrates the removal of fixation in the past and the elimination of the split in the duality. Ousting of evil leads to the shadows, to unknowingly commit to in the past. Overcoming the duality through integration of the shadow leads to a new dimension to the endless movement in the present and in unity, eternity and love.
Life in a layer devices dictated by the great fear. Both outside and inside there is occupied by fear barrier (Fig. 2a). Truth can not be perceived from the outside, but the deeper layers can not recognize the inside. As subordination under this fear leads to adaptation to restraint and restriction to inertial measure up to standards, and knows itself, each of us. How much is locked inside our hearts at the level of body, feelings, energy, and like any treasure in our lives is lost, both because of this and externally many do not survive, can not be expressed in a relationship, alone, in all spheres of life because it is dominated by fear. Because of these obstacles conscious and unconscious artificially separated. This psychotherapy, real spirituality, real religion are trying to help these people again to break the blockade (Fig. 2c). The entire evolution aimed in this direction, with the associated whole meaning of our existence. First of all, this fear must be re-felt, re-enacted. We should rejoice fear, even fear increased, to see how the acceptance and understanding of it gradually leads to clarity and knowledge, so that gradually peel fear hatch good kernel, so that fear will turn into a careful, caring, gently, and gradually more and more disintegrated. It will dissolve, because we are all more and more appreciated in fully understanding the state of openness to fear, which makes it unnecessary fear. Also, resistance, stubbornness, directed against awareness should be aroused in order to break through the layer of devices. We must regain our perseverance, our say "no" to adapt. Because we are afraid to say "no" because of the consequences it could trigger. Say no to adapt means to say "yes" to yourself, despite the external loss such as location and despite the internal feelings such as fear or guilt. Will will re-open. In stubbornness is found positive nucleus. Crisp and clear "yes" clear and explicit "no", "I want" and "I do not want" instead of "I need, I need, I can not, who ruled us in a layer devices. Resistance itself, the perception of their own true nature is now directed against the opportunists. Everything becomes clearer shows that it depends only on me, now and always, I deny myself or not. Even if I am a child or a teenager was hard, it was too complicated to solve itself for themselves against the pressure device, even if it is clear that I was afraid of the consequences, that's all it was my decision, decisions against himself, against the my own feelings, which I can cancel at any time. However, the disclosure of their own will I return back to their so-called angry feelings, to reject feelings. With the ability to withstand the fear I get clarity on all the chaos of feelings in me and in the world and the impact that it provides. In this way we will be a long time to go through a dark corridor on both sides of which are located in a number of doors, behind which is our feelings. All these rooms that fascinate us or cause us disgusted in which we lost when we open them, and not looking at it, we do no choice if we need to light these rooms to find their own way. Behind each of these rejecting feelings are more subtle rejected feelings, which then lead us back to our inner center. (Fig. 2d). For everyone else now apparent in such a horrible feeling we'll find a healthy vitality. Each of us - and this is important - we know every feeling, but everyone is more or less problematic to deal with it. We can not consider all these feelings of isolation, it's a long way, I will list only some of them: hatred, inhibited the vital force, behind which hides sorrow. Envy, which hides behind the fear of being excluded, the feeling of loneliness. Jealousy and its controlling tendencies, which hides behind the fear of loss and before the pain of loss. Dependence, which is trying to ward off loneliness, pain, depression, which contains the meaninglessness, pain, guilt, anger, feelings of inferiority. But there is still greed, boredom, rigidity, sense of duty, deceit, hypocrisy, violence, greed, suspicion, admiration, which also want to be integrated. For rejecting these feelings gradually more and more relieved feeling rejected, there is increasing Regression to the world baby, rejecting the ego begins to die, lose control, we again get access to perenatalnym spaces and death (Fig. 2d). We Discover the plane, which is what we want, no longer has such a strong weight, but is much more due to the whole vision. "Yes, come to pass is not mine, but Thy will be done" - says the new law. Clarity increases even more, but at the same time begins to open and access to universal force and thus to its own nucleus. These feelings, integration of these feelings always leads us directly back to our center. It is the despair, pain, sorrow, powerlessness, helplessness, exhaustion, which translate into growth in the sense of support and loyalty to the chosen direction, when we accept them. Loneliness, a sense of misunderstanding, prejudice, bewilderment and despair that lead to reconciliation and forgiveness. During the confusion, instability and inevitably we find death, transcendence, meaning, of strife and doubt the truth. Wakes up the consciousness of such incidents as the death and birth. Thus we gaining access to the transpersonal boundary layer (Fig. 2b and 2d). This space, in which a man comes after the death of the ego. Now not my feelings are at the center, but the rest of the universe, which I sensibly can reach. Feel the space, time, feel, feel emotional vibrations of others: through the senses perceive the other person, whole group, the plants, the entire planet, the whole universe. This transpersonal plane psychology. Intersect not only the spatial boundaries, but also the boundaries of linear time, perhaps one can experience their own rudimentary and embryonic development, the history of ancestral peoples, the earliest incarnation, the whole history of evolution. We can also penetrate the consciousness of our cells and tissues. But we also learn to navigate the boundaries of objective reality, to experience spiritual experiences and so on. Opens up the space, though delicious, but ultimately not important, they do not have a purpose. They can even be lost. Important, in contrast, only light that is released, which leads to greater love and greater awareness of 'here' and 'now'. Also, the power of a great temptation, since the power acquired by processing reject feelings, combined with the chaotic charm of these new spaces are easily evokes a sense of omnipotence, which still must be overcome. Loss sensuality means an interest in these spaces. Power is the replacement of a lost sensibility. Processing of these transpersonal spaces and feelings of omnipotence, more and more push to the forefront of the inner core of personality, its own qualities and abilities are seen and Now may occur (Fig. 2b and 2e). The energy that comes from inside, lays off the last resistance. We have more and more deeply begin to know the essence of Love, which in essence is our own original nature, to learn, if you so wish, the will of God. Began an endless process of feeling. I hate feeling more and more diluted. Fear is vigilance, care, care, honesty and finally disappears. Fatigue, weakness, helplessness disappear in their transformation into the willingness to surrender, security, and state adoption of the world, finding in himself a sense of support and flight. My heart, which is entirely filled, expresses itself in participation, the location, closeness, caring, patience, gentleness, sincerity, sensitivity, tact, delicacy. My loneliness turns into a blissful solitude, liberation, peace, silence, space, latitude, eternity, peace of mind, integrity, force, the flow of energy. Joy, harmony, happiness, peace, the safety, appreciation, clarity, beauty, reverence, knowledge, intelligence, freedom filled a space of unity and lead to the truth, authenticity, creativity, creation, simplicity and humility. I also admit that I can never fully achieve center of the light, but infinitely aspire to it. Only light can be here when the space of feelings everyone else will also be dissolved. Therefore, Here begins a new process. These spaces I pass by helping others get their space. I'm getting closer to the light, if I am light to others. In this process, a person becomes a therapist, healer, helper, teacher. Our essence is determined by the true passion, true empathy, honesty, breadth of nature, courage, humility, tolerance, sincerity, earnestness, serenity. We find that the reliability of eternal despair, the sense of meaninglessness and directed toward the center between the states of involvement and perseverance. Heavy air conditioning, in which our entire world and every one of us so much suffering, Now the solution: air conditioning is not "feeling" but only "response".
When we are dominated by rejecting the feelings we see evil outside us, we want to punish it when it appears to suppress it, delete or do anything like that. This is something that happens everywhere. Because of this evil goes underground and is valid from there is very dangerous. If I can afford to reject the feelings, I instead turn my face to the evil that will take it as a part of himself, understand it in ourselves and in the world and again I want to bring him to the truth. Impotence in the face heal evil, reconciled with him. The action does not help, but it helps inaction. Our huge global problems, we can not overcome, we are constantly being forced more and more to the recognition of our powerlessness (see drug problem, the problem of the environment and so on). We are afraid that if everything falls apart. But this failure is needed, it was he would start healing. Related feelings of powerlessness and surrender could again lead us to harmony with nature, to the House of God. Our ego that creates the world horror must ultimately fall before horrified the world, so we were able to step through conscious re-enter the lost paradise, to find favor in the end configured to us a universe in which we exist, that we are. This is the step that our world must do if he does not want to die; nature can still be healed only through inaction rather than through more steps. In a measure of the evolution and individuality step to impotence enforceable. Therefore, the weakness in our world is omnipresent, although we still do not want to admit it. Pressure outside becomes more and more to impotence was more noticeable. For us it is about to see what we can not keep it all under control, a contrast to all that obey. Evil is formed in the rejection that is, by alienation from himself. Welcome present when the possibility of the existence of evil is recognized and accepted, and sustained by This transformed. Evil is nothing but a spurned good. In our world, we are still trying to deny that evil and so punish him instead of with interest and love to turn around to face him again and bring him to the truth.
And finally, another, the last diagram (Fig. 3), which demonstrates the removal of fixation in the past and the elimination of the split in the duality. Ousting of evil leads to the shadows, to unknowingly commit to in the past. Overcoming the duality through integration of the shadow leads to a new dimension to the endless movement in the present and in unity, eternity and love.
Fig. 3: Fixation time and duality and the transition to unity and the eternal motion in the present.
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