After about six-month abstinence written is such a "Ode to Eros." Footnotes, of course, ambiguous.
Eros - my obsession, my eternal companion, pain mine. You - my vocation and charm, faith, and my native land. You - my truth, and I'm your debtor for life. I do not know you, do not run away from you and do not win, you and my prophet and my vice and my destiny.
O Eros! At all ages, people praised you and called you in their temples, and then drove you out, and adored you, adored and hated. They inspires you, hoping to soar with you to heaven, and then tearing your wings, falling from thee in unison, breaking into pieces the earth's stronghold. You have been for them a blessing and a curse, sin, but temptation and fate, the covenant and punishment, an evangelist and the angel of death.
First they prayed to their gods, lest you entered them into temptation, and then they made you a god himself. But by the time they have grown old, decrepit and rotted, and then, standing on the verge of death, they asked about the crumbs from the table of thine only about one a thin line of yours, one of only a handful of your gentle light. Others were looking for in thee Satan, but have found the Messiah, and then they worship you, then to make you the scapegoat. Again and again you clothed in the devil, and again and again you have exposed. Vozhdeleli you ladies and gentlemen, but they also hid you. You will not find a reliable shelter in the hearts and minds of the human, but also and was not you never of human thoughts and hearts spared.
greatest world crowned thee, and overthrew the ancient feasting in your honor a and dedicate to you my best poems and speeches 2 . As you have found the root cause of 3 , but also attributed the you know coming 4 . Someone saw you a comic, then tragic, and sometimes tragicomic 5 . Used to say also that you permeate its light essence of all things 6 , because you get drunk with wine and poison, kill and kill others. Someone said that you are rich, someone that is poor. You attributed the origin of the most unprecedented and even pedigree 7 . Other washed you from the mud, but after thy same purity, they washed their dirty hands. 8
name to you - the paradox and contradiction, but also and the speech itself 9 . For, as I said, you live not only in the flesh, but in the word. Because they elicit from you your truth, you questioned how the defendant confessed you, you tried to talk, talk and talk. And while they still thought that you of something they do not agree. At this strange interrogation, they not disdain to torture or death sentences: - Oh, Eros - how many times they 10 (have) tried to kill you!
And always they are killed only yourself, you're not a born and not dying. One of the great genius was trying to justify you, denying you of contempt. He led a talk about you when sang great mind, the great sage and higher self. 11
best of people saw in you muse and inspiration - a source of harmony, knowledge, techne and art. You - the life and freedom, seeds and fruits, caring and striving.
Yes, only one, the wisest of the wisest could get to know you and accept your gifts. I sing in your glory in the dark.
But my soul wanted to be with you to find peace and quiet, because feelings and my thoughts are open to you. I wish I could give you a heart and thoughts of his home and native land and find a house and home in the fluid flow and your in your light. As the ship docks after a long trip to the harbor, and I wanted to would find rest in your arms.
But you - do not harbor and shelter: You tortured agonies and contradictions, you're exhausted its own history, which have a history of war, not peace, conflict, and not compromise, interpretations, and no meaning. Because I dreamed to write to you a different story and a great My dream would be to release you.
In my ignorance and weakness in her I am nothing in the face of thee, O Eros! But the intention of my good and beautiful.
1 см. Платон «Пир»
2 Там же, Федр, Агафон, Эрексимах, Аристофан, Лисий, Сократ
3 см. "Эзотерика"
4 see "Tantra", "Maithuna»
5 see G. Bataille, "From Tears of Eros, as well as works by M. Blanchot
6 see Freud The Theory of libido »
7 see it Diotima / Socrates in the dialogue "Feast»
8 see Pontius Pilate
9 see "sexual discourse," "The History of Sexuality Michel Foucault
10 see the scholastics, the Inquisition, priests, fathers of the Christian Church and others
11 see Friedrich Nietzsche 4. Zarathustra's speech on despising the body. "
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